Unbound (Forbidden Bond Book 1)(7)

By: Cat Miller

She cleared her throat and fought the tears burning the backs of her eyes. He was doing it again. He always had such a gallant reason for abstaining. “Lucas, all I want is you. Nothing else matters. Please let me love you,” she whispered.

“No. Don’t you see? It feels too much like good-bye. I want you so bad, but you’re trying to prove your love before you leave me and it just isn’t necessary.”

Feeling embarrassed and rejected, she wrestled to reclaim her arms and push him off. She struggled to unzip the sleeping bag. Mostly naked, she scrambled for her clothes as the tears began to flow.

Why did he always do this? What was so wrong with her that he didn’t want to make love to her? There was always an excuse. She wished he would just be honest and say he didn’t want her.

“Dani, please stop and talk to me. Don’t be angry. I just want the best for you, baby,” he begged, but she continued her search for her shoes.

She was pissed. How could he ruin this for them? “Damn it, Lucas!” she cursed. “Did you ever think I might need you to show me your love?” Her heartbeat seemed to pound in her head as she stood topless in the lace panties she’d bought for the occasion and glared at Lucas. She realized distantly that it was the first time he’d seen her quite so bare. The few times they’d been together it had been a hurried affair in the back of his truck, and she’d never actually gotten completely naked. Lucas stared, slack jawed, and something suddenly came over Dani. She didn’t care what he thought any longer. She was going to take what she wanted, and she wanted Lucas.

She slid her underwear over her hips and let them fall to her feet. Lucas watched the scrap of black lace as if mesmerized. Dani climbed onto his lap, looking deeply into his eyes.

“Don’t you want me, Lucas?”

He didn’t answer; still staring at her, his eyes glazed over.

She hungrily kissed him, trying to make him feel her need for him, her love for him, through the kiss. His hands moved hotly over her body while she licked down his neck.

She began to feel strange, as if the world had somehow shifted. Suddenly, her vision was very sharp, and the night seemed brighter. Every beat of his heart was too loud, and the heat pouring off him made her…hungry. Dani’s head began to spin. It was no longer the sweet, heavy petting and quick awkward sex of their past. It was hot, and the feelings he aroused in her body were overwhelming. She pulled his shirt off, continuing to bathe him with her tongue.

Warmth spread through her body, and, suddenly, odd pictures began to flash through her mind. Were they memories? They weren’t her memories, but they were memories of her from the outside. She was so excited and confused, all at once. She saw herself the first day of college, at the Ravens game downtown, reading a book on the beach in Ocean City, and playing in the snow with Lucas’s brothers. The images just kept coming. They were Lucas’s memories, only that couldn’t really be her. The girl in his memories looked just like her, down to the white hair and light eyes, only she looked angelic. She was delicate and graceful. Was that how he saw her? Then she saw the most disturbing memory from just a moment before, when she climbed into his lap. Her pale-blue eyes were black.

She jerked herself up and looked through the rear window of the truck into the rearview mirror in the cab of the truck. Her irises were jet black. She looked down at Lucas for a reaction. He was slumped backward, still looking at her all glassy eyed, as if he was looking through her and not really seeing her. What had she done? She smacked him to get his attention.

He shook his head to clear the cobwebs and said, “What happened?”

“Lucas, I am so sorry! I have to go now, right now. Please forgive me.” Dani grabbed her clothes and leapt down from the truck, dressing as she crossed the field where they had always parked, leaving her shoes behind.

“Dani, I’m sorry for whatever I did. Please don’t leave this way. Let’s talk about this.”

He pursued her across the field, but she had to get away from him. His body heat tried to pull her back into his arms, his pulse called her name, and a hunger she didn’t comprehend burned her throat. So she ran fast, too fast. In bare feet, she ran through the woods and across the school parking lot. She ran down Ebenezer Road and about ten blocks to her house to curl up on the front porch swing and prayed her mom didn’t hear her. She couldn’t go into the house. Her mom was still up, and there was no way she was going to be able to act like all was well. She had to calm down and think.

A while later, Lucas’s truck pulled up, and he walked past the porch and around to the side of the house where her bedroom was on the second floor. He tossed pebbles at her window and pleaded for her to come outside or answer her phone.